Being married to an Aspie (aspergers), and having all Aspie kids my family doesn’t like to socialize. BUT I am VERY social and I love being around lots of people! We compromise, I get to do social things, but I don’t force my family to socialize with me. Like Girls night out’s and, my favorite, Blog conferences like IFBC.
When we first moved to Salt Lake I was really lonely. My husband was out of work and at home all the time, but not really home, not happy and depressed. We were living with my in-laws, and that was new and strange. Certainly not ideal, but we were/are grateful (and over the last 4 years we’ve grown closer and it’s much better/easier now).
Also We live in a MUCH older neighborhood so there was no one at all close to my age, or at the same stage of life as me. No friends for me or my kids. I missed my last ward/neighborhood and friends. My weekly cooking with my girlfriends had been amazing and now it was all gone! And to top it off we had just received the diagnosis of the kids and my world was clearly a bit upside down.
(at my 3rd conference, creative estates with Kendra)
I had been food blogging for a few years, but not very seriously, or regularly. Then I discovered craft blogs, and started following other bloggers for the first time. Then I heard about a blog conference, AND it was local, so even though I didn’t know a soul I went!!
It was amazing, for the first time in the year I had been living in Utah I spent time with people my own age, with similar interests, it was amazing! Then a few months later another conference, even better. The next two years I attended a few conferences each year.
Then last year it just didn’t work out, so no conferences, nothing. It’s been a rough year for me. When my youngest turned 1 I was hit with the realization that realizing this stage (babies) is over for me.
Don’t get me wrong, I love every stage for various reasons. BUT knowing that the stage I’m naturally built for is over, and the rest of my life is full of stages, that while still fun, are more of a challenge for me is bit depressing. So it’s been hard. And being without that social vacation that reinvigorates me has been extra hard.
So I’ve been trying to keep myself from getting depressed. I’ve been writing a cookbook! It’s been really crazy, but fun. I can’t wait to tell you more about it.
And next month I’m attending my first Food conference, IFBC! I’ve been to a few different types of conferences, but never a food conference. I’m nervous all of a sudden, I’m out of praise socializing and making friends. And food bloggers are totally different than the other bloggers so I don’t know what to expect, but I’m putting on my big girl panties and I’m going to have an adventure!
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